Monday, May 25, 2009
Today proved to be a good day for me to reflect upon myself..
Never had i felt so lonely, so left out in school before.
It seemed that i was the solitary person sitting alone in a dark corner, completely shut off from the society.
I guess that it's all about my character.
Guys, I know i haven been much of a good guy.
I'm rather unsociable i know...But i'm trying my best..
I'll change for the better, even if it means not being myself.
During the sexuality talk last week, we were all instructed to pledge to do something for the better.
I pledged to be a better man.
It then chanced upon me that to many, these words only proved to be so full of meaning for the moment and dissipated the moment we all got out of the room.
Like a child who begs his mum to let him play the gaming console, giving out those promises which sounded so inconceivably true and full of hope.
And then breaking these promises the moment he lays his hands on the game he's been anticipating.
I shall prevent that from happening.
My dad once mentioned to me about a chinese idiom, (which i dont know how to type the hanyupinyin). Its about doing a good deed everyday.
As of now, I shall try my best to do at least a good deed everyday.
Which reminds me of a pleasing sight i had encountered and been involved in today during my bus ride home.
After i entered the bus, being one of the first few passengers of the queue, i was lucky enough to find myself a comfortable seat at the front of the bus. Seeing that there wasnt any empty seats nearby, I went to sit down.
But you see, this wasnt an ordinary seat which i was sitting on.
It was a solitary seat by the side of the bus which was meant for the needy, Pregnant women, elderly etc.
It really got me on my nerves to sit there as an overwhelming guilt grew within me, knowing that there were people who needed the seat more than i do.
So i waited and waited for the passengers to board the bus. One by one, none of them looked like they needed it.
Until an old lady walked up the bus, and i thought "ahhh..there she is"
I stood up and patted her shoulder, signalling her to sit down.
And she did.
Although it was a small action that i did, the sense of satisfaction and achievement which i had was enough to brighten up my day which seemed to be full of sorrows.
It was a feeling you would never attain through other means unless you've helped somebody first-hand.
After i gave my seat up, I saw a something which changed my perception of Singaporeans of being the egotistical, self-centered and callous bunch of people.
A young man who was originally sitting beside a lady whom i believed was his wife also stood up and patted the shoulder of another lady. He too, made the effort to give up his seat to the lady.
When i took a glance at the lady's face, her young age aroused my curiousity about why the man had chosen to give up his seat to her.
It was until i directed my eyes down and found out that she was blessed with a child who has yet to be born.
Ahhh...Singaporeans aren't an ungraceful and inconsiderate bunch of people afterall.
Stuffs I painted @ 9:18 PM
Saturday, May 23, 2009
I just kept watching...and watching...and watching....
And the ball left his hands, spinning in mid-air.
It was like a movie scene, everything moving in slow-motion, and the buzzer went off...
SWISH!
The Cavaliers have won it, they have taken game 2 to tie the series 1-1.
Stuffs I painted @ 3:33 PM
Friday, May 22, 2009
a movie i watched just got me thinking...
if you've been liking a girl for quite some time, and one day, you saw her kissing your good friend.
how would you feel?
this is a fight scene from the movie i watched.. real cool
Stuffs I painted @ 8:43 PM
Monday, May 18, 2009
life's been so hectic i havent had the chance to stop and contemplate what i've been doing so far.
my friends...they seem so distant from me.
i miss YINGSI JIA HAO SAMEER A LOT A LOT A LOT...
these arent jus words...i meant seriously...
Zhen Zi's the man...he's so far by the one whom i've spoken a lot to...
rock on dude...you're keeping me going
Stuffs I painted @ 9:35 PM
Saturday, May 2, 2009
the feeling is gone..
or at least it's fading.....
=)
Stuffs I painted @ 12:02 AM